When I was a child, I hated shopping. In my adult life, for a long time I cooked meals every night that were recipes from cookbooks. I also had a highly detailed pre-filled shopping list I would comb through for up to an hour before even getting the car keys. Combined with my anxiety at the time, I found it exhausting. Therefore, one day I dropped the cooking and kept shopping to a minimum. Depending on where I lived, I could get away with doing neither because someone else did it and I could just pay them back. However, it came at a cost. There seemed to be an unspoken expectation that they would keep cooking dinner and doing shopping, and therefore I 'should' be home to share it with them. I felt guilty about just taking a serve from the freezer and eating it with my friends somewhere else.
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Today during self reflection I had an epiphany. Actually do shopping and cooking myself, then I wouldn't need to feel bad about taking pre-cooked food for some night time socialising. I bought the ingredients from Gilbert's and cooked a satay sweet potato curry I found on Google. And the person I was living with was very happy about it, because they had a project deadline to meet. Not only that, this could be a significant and positive shift in the relationship. This was possible because of the ability to self reflect in an extraordinarily effective way.
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